Well, that's that. I lay all my cards out on the table, and lost the pot. But it's not that I wasn't warned. And I have no one else to blame but myself.
This is all a little too cliched.
Interrogation
Does the word 'unconditional' not mean in real life what it does in the dictionary?
It'd just be easier to pretend that it never happened, but then, that defeats the whole point of the entire exercise. Those 24 hours were among the best I'd ever spent, and the ironic part is that I was miserable throughout, but it didn't matter.
Revalation
The word 'perfect' is illusory. There is no such thing as perfect in this world. It there were, it would create a paradox and the world woudl come to an end.
The lie
Somehow, lying comes more naturally to human beings than honesty, but does that mean that we can never tell the truth, ever?
The resolve
It's easier to hang my head and cry. The challenge would be to hold my head up and live, even when I know what I know. It's not that I don't care what happened, I do. I know that it will haunt me forever (forever is a long time). And of course, I can't let it go, because then I will be doing what I hate most. To remember is my responsibility. It is the curse that I must live with.I still love you, and every time I say that, I drive a stake through my heart. But its easier to regret something that you did rather than something you didn't do.But I do not regret it. Not now, not ever.
The end
1 comment:
on the resolve, someone said: "Regret for the things we did can be tampered by time; it is regret for things we did not do that is inconsolable."
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